No matter what, God has a plan for our lives. Yes, I have cancer, but God can still use me to bring glory to Himself and His kingdom. There are days when I find it really hard just to do things, but I try every day to do something – especially my Bible study. Staying in The Word, keeps me grounded and keeps my focus on what really matters. I also work on my crochet and my cross stitch. My crochet is especially something that keeps me going as I’ve been doing it since I was four years old. My sweet grandmother taught me and it’s such a part of me now! Mostly, I want to be an encouragement to others that no matter what, God is still here with us no matter what. He is not shocked by my situation, or yours, and it’s all part of His greater plan. I may not understand why now, but I will. My goal every day is to just trust Him and believe in Him and that’s exactly what I do.
I had my second chemo treatment last Thursday. I also met my new doctor and I really, really like him. My son really liked him, too. He’s the youngest doctor I’ve had, only a bit older than my son – like in his early 30’s, but he seems very devoted as a doctor and explained things to me that no other doctor has done. I’m not going to get too excited about things yet, but right now, I’m really thinking that I’m going to stay with this doctor rather than going back to my original doctor. He talked about doing other treatments if this one doesn’t work. He is also ordering a scan as I’ve had two treatments and he wants to see what’s happening. That makes me feel a lot better as my other doctor was looking at not doing one for at least one more treatment. I would rather know now what’s going on instead of waiting. I feel like he waited too long to check me during the immune therapy and the cancer was coming back full force and it would have been better to know that sooner.
My new chemo drug looks like I’m getting an IV full of Kool-Aid. I was really shocked the first time I saw it. I
I’m used to seeing it now, but it still looks strange to me! All my other meds were clear. I was told there’s a bright blue chemo, too, which seems odd. I guess there’s a reason for the coloring but I’m not sure what it is!
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” -Joshua 1:9